Feature article at Resident Advisor

“We should be careful to consider exactly what future we are defaulting to, and what ways we have been taught to engage this default-future,” she says. “As someone who is brown, someone who is queer—struggling to exist as both—my relationship with the future has been precious because it’s where my positivity can take flight, where the narratives I embody / live / create, jettison out and into being, full of hope and energy.”

Feature article at TinyMixTapes

“My body a dwelling between colonized and colonizer, I once carried a shame of my brownness. It was as though my whiteness wanted to purge my mother’s blood from me; I would even pray that I would wake up to find myself not only entirely white, but entirely a ‘real boy,’ because even then, I already knew I didn’t fit in with the gender assigned to me. Contact with my Bolivian/indigenous heritage — whether that was through music, language, food, or literally touching the ground of La Paz — was crucial to undoing this mental fixation, this internalized hatred. My encountering with landscape, my reaching out to it, gave clarity to concepts still difficult to put into/retain with languages. In Mexico, the rules were different: as a child, I could ride deep into the countryside, unsupervised. I became aware of my own longing, isolation, hysterical positioning, while at the same time uncovering a new relationship with (and very disanthropocentric companion in) landscape. It was by this encountering that I found god, godness — this thing in me that was also an excess, indifferent yet total grace, this thing that embraces, hides, moves through what I am, surviving what I am, yet always dying in order to be new (its newness is ancient).”

See also: Moth / Lake

(Happy New Year!)